I am racing on Sunday. I can’t quite seem to wrap my head around that fact. It will be a triathlon unlike any I have ever done – a swim in the North Sea, a cycle on open roads (sharing traffic with big lorries – yikes!), and a 10k run off the bike – the first time I will have done this since 2011! I am getting ready – finding my mental game. Searching for my confidence. I’ve sent a bunch of pathetic messages to my coach, things like “Why am I doing this?”… But I know why I am doing this – because I can. And as my friend Amy reminded the other day when I sent her a pathetic message too, it wasn’t too long ago that doing a triathlon seemed off the table.
So I’m reverting back to favourite mantras. I’m embracing my nerves. I feel my adrenaline building. I’m focusing on the positive – the fact that I will finally get to finish a race, my target distance for 2013. I am ready.
Yep, the Andrews Sisters are my current ear worm. Don’t know what I’m talking about? Here’s a video of Bing Crosby and Bette Midler performing it.
Sunday is fast approaching. I intend to go out and give it my all. Because I can. And because I deserve this. Every single moment.
By the way, that photo is from wild growth in the yard behind our house. London is full of hidden gems – like yards behind houses that no one knows exist. With hidden gardens, and surprises like this flower. I always take a moment to notice the small things, it really does help me to build a positive frame of mind!